Damn, just damn.

I haven't posted much because my personal computer can't access the site anymore and I have to do this from work. But today I really need some therapy.

What really kills me about "Christians" (or at least a certain type) is that they will preach hell fire and brimstone at you non-stop, but turn around and do something cruel without a second thought. (As long as they "technically" don't cross the "big 10".)

Just because they never "technically" lied (they just omitted) its all okay that they rip out your heart and shit on it.

Wrong is still wrong. There is a greater concept of right and wrong that they seem to miss alot of the time. It is not okay to let someone go all along under a mistaken idea that they can have something and let them get attached and more attached and even more attached and to say "well i think I may have found a good owner for __________ after all.", but all the while you know you've already sold that damn horse. He was milking me for my riding fee all the while knowing the only reason I was going up there was to see that particular horse. Not to here his preaching, or put up with that brat of a kid and her foul pony. But I put up with it, I covered my tattoos to be nice since he asked me, I even bit my tongue more times than I can count when launched into his routine. And what did it get me? Crying, that's what. Heartache, and pain.

Maybe I do get too attached too quickly, but damn it he f'ing knew that. It is a part of who I am and I will not apologize for it. But I damn well will not ride another horse without a price tag first. A number and a sure thing.